Awards:
2023 Readers' Favorite International Book Awards Gold Medal for Memoir
2023 Outstanding Creator Awards (Winter) Third-Place Winner Best Non-Fiction Book
2023 Outstanding Creator Awards (Winter) First-Place Winner in Family
2023 Outstanding Creator Awards (Winter) Second-Place Winner in Autobiographies and Memoirs
2023 Outstanding Creator Awards (Winter) Third-Place Winner in Women's Non-Fiction & Women's Issues
2023 Outstanding Creator Awards (Winter) Third-Place Winner in Motivational / Inspirational
2023 PenCraft Awards Seasonal Winner (Winter 2023) in Memoir
2022 Memoir Prize for Books Winner in Resilience
2022 Firebird Book Awards First-Place Winner in Parenting and Family
2022 Firebird Book Awards First-Place Winner in Coming of Age
2022 Firebird Book Awards First-Place Winner in Psychiatry/Psychology
Summary:
This award-winning work of narrative nonfiction is a raw and haunting account of one girl's journey through madness, loss, and a broken child welfare system in Los Angeles in the 1980s.
Seven-year-old Leslie has a serious problem. Someone is trying to kill her.
Her mother Roberta suffers from paranoid schizophrenia, and she writes rambling manifestos and forces her children to live on the run to evade capture by the Russian spies she believes are after them.
With every psychotic break, Leslie and her younger brother face terrifying circumstances despite the fact that Roberta's only wish is to protect them. Who will help them when she is convinced that killing them will save them from a worse fate?
When separated from her family and thrust into foster care for the foreseeable future, Leslie navigates a new kind of fear and loneliness. All she wants is to be loved, but how can her mother ever love her when she is so far away? How can she love her now that Leslie has betrayed her in so many ways? Will Leslie ever see her again?
Ultimately, Leslie remains at the mercy of the adults in her life who can effect change, and she wonders if she will ever find a safe place to land. Nobody will talk about her mother's mental illness, and nothing seems to be able to fix her dysfunctional family. But her sixth-grade teacher gives her hope every day, so Leslie pretends she is-and always has been-her daughter.
An unbelievable true story of grit and heart, When I Was Her Daughter is, at its core, a tale about how the redemptive power of patience and courage leads to unconditional love for a lost and angry child desperate to understand where she belongs.
Show moreAwards:
2023 Readers' Favorite International Book Awards Gold Medal for Memoir
2023 Outstanding Creator Awards (Winter) Third-Place Winner Best Non-Fiction Book
2023 Outstanding Creator Awards (Winter) First-Place Winner in Family
2023 Outstanding Creator Awards (Winter) Second-Place Winner in Autobiographies and Memoirs
2023 Outstanding Creator Awards (Winter) Third-Place Winner in Women's Non-Fiction & Women's Issues
2023 Outstanding Creator Awards (Winter) Third-Place Winner in Motivational / Inspirational
2023 PenCraft Awards Seasonal Winner (Winter 2023) in Memoir
2022 Memoir Prize for Books Winner in Resilience
2022 Firebird Book Awards First-Place Winner in Parenting and Family
2022 Firebird Book Awards First-Place Winner in Coming of Age
2022 Firebird Book Awards First-Place Winner in Psychiatry/Psychology
Summary:
This award-winning work of narrative nonfiction is a raw and haunting account of one girl's journey through madness, loss, and a broken child welfare system in Los Angeles in the 1980s.
Seven-year-old Leslie has a serious problem. Someone is trying to kill her.
Her mother Roberta suffers from paranoid schizophrenia, and she writes rambling manifestos and forces her children to live on the run to evade capture by the Russian spies she believes are after them.
With every psychotic break, Leslie and her younger brother face terrifying circumstances despite the fact that Roberta's only wish is to protect them. Who will help them when she is convinced that killing them will save them from a worse fate?
When separated from her family and thrust into foster care for the foreseeable future, Leslie navigates a new kind of fear and loneliness. All she wants is to be loved, but how can her mother ever love her when she is so far away? How can she love her now that Leslie has betrayed her in so many ways? Will Leslie ever see her again?
Ultimately, Leslie remains at the mercy of the adults in her life who can effect change, and she wonders if she will ever find a safe place to land. Nobody will talk about her mother's mental illness, and nothing seems to be able to fix her dysfunctional family. But her sixth-grade teacher gives her hope every day, so Leslie pretends she is-and always has been-her daughter.
An unbelievable true story of grit and heart, When I Was Her Daughter is, at its core, a tale about how the redemptive power of patience and courage leads to unconditional love for a lost and angry child desperate to understand where she belongs.
Show moreLeslie Ferguson is an accomplished educator, editor, and writing coach. As a youth in foster care, she dreamed about becoming a teacher. After earning her teaching credential from the University of Redlands, she taught high school English at her alma mater for nearly two decades. During that time, she obtained a master's degree in English literature and an MFA in creative writing from Chapman University. Her work has been published in numerous literary magazines and anthologies. A member of the San Diego Memoir Writers Association and the San Diego Writers and Editors Guild, Leslie is a repeat performer at So Say We All's VAMP and Poets Underground. She lives with one husband and two cats in the greater San Diego area, where she binge-watches dark character dramas and reminisces about her glory days as an All-American basketball player and collegiate Hall-of-Fame athlete. When I Was Her Daughter is her first book. Visit the author online at LeslieFergusonAuthor.com.
"This multilayered and nuanced memoir is a stunning account of
family love and sacrifice." -Book Life Reviews
"It felt like a deep dive into the world of child welfare, abuse,
and mental illness from a totally unique perspective, and it was
delivered with the eloquence and emotional balance of someone who
wants to help others whilst sharing her experiences."-Readers'
Favorite Five-Star Review
"This brilliant memoir, a debut no less, has the insights, the
epiphanies, and the ability to let the reader really live the life
being documented. Not only is this an extraordinary narrative about
a family challenged by mental illness and foster care, it gives
voice to a greater sense of displacement and alienation. It also
offers hope, love, and forgiveness. It is a book for our time-for
all time-in that it's heartbreakingly beautiful and genuinely
unforgettable. This memoir is absolutely not to be missed. There
are not enough thumbs-up to give it. Read it! Now!"-Sue William
Silverman, award-winning author of How to Survive Death and Other
Inconveniences
"When I Was Her Daughter is a gripping, visceral, page-turning
memoir. With humor and heart, Ferguson tells the story of growing
up with a seriously dangerous mentally ill mother, navigating the
sometimes-terrifying-often-lonely foster care system, and
ultimately finding a home. Unflinching, powerful, lyrical, and raw,
this memoir is both heartbreaking and triumphant."-Marni Freedman,
co-founder of The San Diego Writers Festival
"When I Was Her Daughter is a powerful and compelling memoir.
Ferguson's gifted storytelling transports the reader to her
childhood, a time filled with confusion, imagination, grief, and
hope. This is a story that will break your heart and put it back
together again."-Holly Kammier, best-selling author of Lost
Girl
"In this haunting and heroic memoir, Ferguson captures the reader
with her intense storytelling skills and invites us to cheer her on
every step of the way. The book leaves inspiring moments of
strength and resilience throughout to be captured and called on for
our own forever. Brilliant breakout book!"-Sunny Rey, owner and
creator of Poets Underground and Poets Underground Press
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